Well the last 11 days was about regrouping until I got a call for a last minute business trip to the Bahamas. How could I pass that up? I couldn’t so I went. It was amazing. And then while I was there I was appointed to the Environmental Review and Historical Board for the City of South Miami. I could not have asked for a better week . I was there to evaluate the landscaping and maintenance and to teach the landscape crew on a project. It was a new sort of experience and I enjoyed it. I can’t wait to get back.
One of the landscape crew members is taking a course and he had an assignment and asked if I could help. He had to do an interview with someone that was a Landscape Architect. Sure why not. He gave me the questions and as I was answering them I sort of built a concept for a business. A business that I could actually love. Sorry you will have to wait for that.
I was so excited when I got back to Miami and could not wait to keep fantasying about this opportunity. Unfortunately reality hit me like a freaking brick wall. Not any brick wall this one was held up by a concrete structure. And it hurt. Worse than my vespa accident.
What I learned is that I have been stuck and I sort of knew it but just pushed it aside. I also learned that really I have made enough friends along the way that at some point they will show up at the right moment to get you un-stuck. It will be at the exact moment when you are ready. Pretty amazing really.
That was the nice lesson. I also learned a hard lesson and that is I am way too nice. This year has been the year of some people (well it was a lot really) just taking advantage of that. I always want to abuse back but I can’t. It is not with in me. The worst part is that for the very first time a dear friend asked me for a favor and since I am on edge I had to decline. I have never done that before and it is killing me. This person completely understands and supports my decision but never the less it hurts. Even with all the bad I am very fortunate to have friends that support me so it is still all good in a sense.
The next 48 hours will be tough. I have to do some soul searching and figure out what I want to do. Do I take the high road or do I fight? I will have to say the for the first time since I have been married I wish Steve was not an engineer on a boat and he was here to help me figure this out.
So for now I will dream about my new opportunity. The answer will come at the exact moment that it needs to I am certain.